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well it's the last day of the year, of a very fast year but a really packed one. it just went by so quickly i feel as if it was on fast forward most of the time. but at least it wasn't like i was on autopilot the whole time.

so the year was filled, but fast. we moved house, watched phantom, the whole C saga, had missions month, midyears, prelims, o levels, mission trip, school. and more school and more school. the whole year seemed to revolve around exams and then studying for the next one and then the next lot. hm

i think the most fufilling thing i did this year was go on the mission trip. it was so refreshing... yea anyway,

bit iffy about next year, not in a nervous dreading way but in a can't really be bothered kind of way - the new schools and stuff and the o level results coming out on the 24th jan and everything.. so much packed in the first half, important stuff too so it's not going to be the typical lazy beginning to a lazy year.

well this year i don't want it to be lazy and slow paced like the other years. i want to equip myself, i dont ever want my brain to go into mush like it usually does during the holidays becoz it feels so gross. i'm going to learn chinese by myself, revive my passion to play the piano even though it does mean short nails, i'll deal.

i don't want to just be like everyone else this year. not in a superficial want-to-be-popular and pleasing-man kind of way but like in a wwjd sort of way. i have all this time that i waste just milling around that i could be harnessing to do something worthwhile and dare i say it? constructive.. and this time around i don't want to while it away.

there's some sort of energy i feel in my fingers now

ah! watchnight service tonight can't wait! i really like going to church, and not just because of the people. hmph.

yay! excited :D **.**'**.**,*^**.:*~**

Christmas was really fun :) especially liked the after service giving cards to friends bit. oh man i miss them so much it's sort of aching.

and of course i loved hanging out at aly's place with ethel and jeli. we had a really good talk and aly's coming over to pl! yayness. argh i need to talk to rachel about joing her cell but she hasn't come over yet with the accounts or anything. and jie's getting white hair over it

cleared up my desk. you can see the brown of it and all the Christmas card mania is gonnnne. love me new pencil case and notebook yay! still need to get a wallet and bag for school though. nyum

finally up to date-ish with my journal from the trip, was writing like crazy yesterday my pen ink has depleted noticeably but it just feels so good to write and remember, it's almost as good a substitute of seeing them i guess. saw hannah, brandon, yiling and royston today though, they were leaving for senior camp at 7.30 in the morning. thank God i live so close to church. yeap, it was just to give her a Christmas card coz she's been away.

still have to write my testimony for heartbeat.

i think i'm not going to continue blogging anymore, maybe i will just for the mundane things or for notices or whichever but i think i'll start writing journaling again..

got back into the habit during the trip and i felt so good to just write and write without control knowing that no one would read and that i could really spill all my thoughts onto the paper without having to think twice about what i'm saying. and it just feels more normal to write by hand, more natural than typing and there's just something more concrete about writing with pen on paper, the texture of it seems more real instead of the soft sounds of the keys in soft copy, it lacks the seriousness and substance of it somehow.

yup,. plus my sister just gave me a very pretty big fat black notebook to write in. and i also have my rainbow notebook that i bought myself from prints and the sph one but i think i'll just save that for mission journaling or something. i still need to complete the last two days of the trip eep. plus my testimonial.

made 10 mini cards yesterday, well 7 yesterday and 3 today for the people who went to china :) miss them a lot now after being with them for 11 days and going through things together that i've never even had with my closest friends - it's something very special and i can't wait to see them tomorrow

well i'm back and now i'm a little lost,

'How do you pick up the threads of an old life ? How do you go on, when in your heart, you begin to understand, there is no going back ?' - Frodo Baggins

everything's so different now, i see things from a different perspective and comparisons keep coming in. when they do all i can do is to pray. rachel was right, reentry is not very pleasant. and it wasn't just missing the people i was with for 11 days in such close proximity either, but the whole place, sj and the worship, i just pray that tng will become like that, and the 9am too. tessa misses sj too, just watching the people right after worship just snap right out of it and start socialising straight away, it was quite painful because it was as if God's presence is just something that comes when the music is playing, the moment it stops it's over, like some button you can switch on and off or something. if it's not that then it's like they're just singing the songs because it's there and they aren't even worshipping - i don't know which one is worse. i'm not being critical because i was just like that before

'blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted'
matthew 5:4

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the trip was amazing. God was just so real and you could see Him everywhere we looked, especially on the 5 hour bus rides through the mountains and the scenery was just wowing, and the pictures don't even capture half of its actual beauty but it was just so wonderful. it wasn't just the nature, but it was also how He works in the lives of the people there, it's so hard to type it out, i dont know how to make them understand

How Great is our God
Chris Tomlin

The splendour of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all who sing
How great, How great
Is our God

Age to age he stands
And time is in His Hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb

How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all who sing
How great, How great
Is our God

Name above all names
You are Worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
Is our God

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pictures here

going to china tomorrow! be back on the 21st

cya!

so much has happened in the past few days.. and so much more is going to happen in the next week or two which is really really amazing and i'm really excited for the trip :D


yay!


i dunno what else to write. *excited*


(fuzzy wuzzy was a bear
fuzzy wuzzy had no hair)

i thought i'd better start putting nice titles up since it's put up so nicely

went to botanic gardens today with carissa and sue and mel :) took lots of pictures, i refuse to say camwhore - or is that just a phrase used for taking pictures of people and yourself? in any case it's a disgusting distateful word and even if it is entered into the new oxford dictionary i'm never ever ever going to use it. with the exception of just now. but is it a noun or a verb or a what?

yup. anyway botanic gardens is very pretty - dont remember the last time i went there, it must've been aaages. jie says it's in 99 or 98. yep

boot camp tomorrow! we invited rachel over for breakfast (we're having bacon and eggs) before we leave, and walk about 100 metres to church. we're going to use our Christmas cutlery yay

writing a separate journal for the missions stuffs, i find it much easier to write than type. also coz the journal isnt meant to be read, and blogs are..

i hugged johnny depp in my dream last night, must've been the 5 days of watching pirates in a row. or was it 6? shrugs. i've practically memorized the whole script (which is the intended outcome i think)

humdingerry.