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that he lay down his life for his friends."

John 15:13

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there is something wrong when you get as many emails from your boss AND facebook.

and when you go to potong pasir 7 days a week.

or maybe that's just how it is.

i have so many emails it's kinda scary. like i dont know what to do with them.

(hears jem's voice in the back of my mind saying "REPLY LAH")

ignores. for a little while more at least.

i like that quiet place, when everything went silent - no more voices, no more sound but yours. that sanctuary where i could be real, being me as tired and broken and hurt. where your love washed over me, refilling the cracks, taking me for a soar above the storm and reminding me of a hope for the land and a peace that endureth. to have that moment where slowly that veil is removed and the truth of the matter is revealed and all clarity dawns and settles in somewhere deeper than your mind.

i'm not going to mess with things bigger than me anymore, i'll leave it to God thanks, just like it's supposed to be.

there's a need for encouragement in the world i think, for more words of affirmation - honest, direct compliments not those snarky backwards ones that sound like insults but arent really coz you know that person. words are powerful, and it's strange how things come back again like those demons swept out of the house thingy. i thought i had it covered.

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10

this is fully what's happening, this is so much more than just for ewlc, it's also helping people get through ewlc.

there's something missing in the lives of the people around me. deliberate, intended action maybe. life isnt some force that you have to submit to, it's not alive, you are.

oh.

i totally forgot about msa2. whoops. but i've enjoyed this break without the P's around. i only just remembered when i popped by kc's blog.

so chinese new year was the same as usual, dinner and tv. shrugs. at least the haybeehiam was good =)

had the gang over on sunday after service coz there was no where to eat! my maiyoqi will just have to wait until next sunday i suppose. we had a nice large pot of instant noodles coz there's nothing much to eat and jie threw a psyche coz she's anal about guests just as much as mum is.

maybe i should get a private blog too.

there are so many things warped in this world, i was reading revelation the other day and heaven seems well, heavenly. i guess we were made for better things that earth cant ever satisfy.

cant believe february is coming so soon. this holiday is making me grumpy, now i cant wait to go back to school. what on earth is wrong with me. seeeriously. but really, nothing beats watching the last bit of moulin rouge, then switching to lotr2, falling asleep once frodo and sam come on, waking up for the credits and end off with the middle of titanic. awesome.

i need to get back into school mode please,

this song is stuck in my head!

but it's nice so i dont mind so much =)

Come What May (Moulin Rouge)
Ewan McGregor and Nicole Kidman
Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

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just cant help thinking how much things have changed, all the stuff that happened last year - the newness and the wowness of it all. i even tried writing it all down during the new year but i think i only got to about feb before i gave up haha. but really, it's insane. and i get the feeling that this year wouldnt be so wow coz last year was a year of New in almost every aspect of my life. but this year is a more persevering one, like of continuity so that's gonna be much differenter.

martha and mary came up again, and so did still. i think i'm slowly getting the picture. my mind's not working so well now i dunno why. well alright maybe i do, but it's worrying that i'm not doing anything to stop it. gr

okay it stops now. no more coz i see the way you're going.

'Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.'
1 Cor 13:4-7

just something i need to remember, among many other things. i'm glad i dont have to work out real definitions for that one.

lunch was fun today yay for free flow of icecream! even that strange corn one that i thought was mango hahah. ah but the company as always is wonderful love you all muches okay =) even if sammie wont tell me his name hmf!

how did things get so complicated? maybe this is what happens when you know the same people and the venn diagram gets all cluttered and screwy with so many lines but yet not and all that.

thank God for the break ahead when we can all take a step back and breathe.

yay it's FINALLY THURSDAY!

not that i didnt have a wonderful week of msas and chatting with sharon at her time booth. and having sfc! yeah.

anyway cny celeb tmr so we have a half day. or a day without school anyway so yay!

umm. i'm excited. yes i am!

i had a whole lot of things to say but i've forgotten them now. thanks to audrey la hahaha.

singing your praises,

i really cant wait for the cny holidays. coz i'm just craving anything with holiday and no school even if it's full of red. or pink in pl's case.

i'm already beginning to love my little girls. and my new cell as well.something fantastic's going to come out of this =)

had lunch with ethel and aly today HAHA. (we were talking about pheromones):

ethel: you know how guys have testosterone, and girls have estrogen.. both have pheromones and they're released when *something or rather*

alyssa: is it like chocolate?

me: ??????

ethel: it's a kind of.... smell.

*alyssa's classic face* D?<

HAHAHAHAHA

k whatever i just told mum and jie and they looked at me weird. but it was awesome lunching with them again =)

yay i'm refreshed and ready for another week of .. school. <- (words like nonsense, chionging, etc came to mind. but i guess school pretty much sums it up)

only ethel:

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman 70% Spider-Man 55% Supergirl 53% Robin 52% The Flash 50% Wonder Woman 48% Hulk 40% Green Lantern 35% Iron Man 35% Batman 20% Catwoman 20%

You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz


hahahaha!


in any case i'm glad i'm not batman coz he is such a poser even if christian bale was ohmygoshly cute in little women when he was younger -





but spiderman's pretty cool coz he can doesnt have to move much to get things when he's sitting down coz he can just web it over. maybe i'm just lazy, but school's making me more sluggish and active all at the same time.

wow talk about a busy week.

it's only been 5 days of school and already we've been through:

1 and a half msa's
a chiong for open house
open house and cca
many many meetings
the beginning of something new
a chinatown excursion
plan plan plans planned planning

my goodness it's been crazy. but somehow there's always been you who gets me up in the morning and refreshes me during the day =)

man ezra's awesome. i cant express how wonderful it's been. but there's always this gap where i know you dont know but you dont know you dont know and it's hard to find a common ground. maybe i should just ask for it. it's easy to be caught up in the other stuff when the original calling is just all around you.

i'm going to learn a lot this year. i can tell, it's already begun

now i know why i go to school for.

and it's totally not for msa. or a levels. they just get in the way of a more interesting and important programme and goings-on. which is why i'm here blogging after a day of openhouse prep and a dinner full of tv and keys in icelemontea haha! (sorry victor btw) instead of studying for econs. sigh

i'm just kinda in awe of how crazy it is, and how i can not sleep until about 1ish and wake up at 5.30 refreshed and ready to go. i tell you this is fully not my strength at all and i'm so glad it isnt.

open house is tomorrow, last minute chionging today but everything looks pretty good even he said so so i guess that means something aye. good job dears =) it's so nice seeing everyone again, even if it weird seeing them in uniform hahaha.

suddenly school has gotten so much more interesting what with the new teachers and whatnot. cant wait for the j1s to come in. got to start making a difference in people's lives again! not that i'm not now though. it's kinda scary how responsible you are for other people's lives. and it's dumb how some singers or whatever influence the littler ones and say oh whatever i'm just doing what i'm doing.

anyway i really like this song atm. i'm so encouraged

Almighty
Brooke Fraser

Baring all I stand here before You
All my hurts exposed
In the depths of my despair I cry out to You
Make me whole

There is nothing I can do to make You love me more
Nothing I can do to make You love me less
I get on my knees and lift my hands to worship
And confess

You are the Lord God Almighty
I fall at Your feet
And I fall oceans short of Your glory
Yet You stoop down to make me great
Almighty God

Everyday I choose again to love You
To keep Your word in my heart
Give it all to You now Lord, I will surrender
Take every part

yay new year new blogskin! been wanting to change for a while but havent had the time busy week this week =) tuesday was my only free day to devote myself to my dear horrendous maths but i only made it til lunch.. ah well. i like this blogskin coz when you bold stuff it becomes pink! which is quite cute even though i'm not a pink person or whatever.

anywho.

went to sentosa with my dear thailanders and gen sent the photos! yay =) sucks that nac was away though, he would've done splendidly in the sun

anyway this is my favs from gen,







yesterday was ultimate marathon at school man, went there to um, share homework until the annoying mediacorp people came. so we went up to shift our junk into the mentor's room and out of all the corridors in the whole entire school they just had to film along the one we were on. so we couldnt leave it til lunch so everything shifted back an hour..


but at least jem took us for a ride in the um, his bus, to toa payoh for chicken rice which was so good i couldnt even say how good it was coz i was just eating and eating haha. ohmygoodness for dont forget the lyrics disney version!


went back to school to do the noticeboard and it's going to look fantabulous when it's all done. and oh, there's open house on wednesday, thanks for telling me yesterday! dinner and ewlc meeting after =) i like my newish rainbow notebook haha. it's been revived from the beginning of last year.


even though it was a very long day, i couldnt think of any other group of people i'd want to spend it with.


jie came back this morning, which is why i'm awake and blogging now.. but yay glad she's back.. and nac too! hahah but dont worry jie i love you more!


school is starting. i'm almost glad, finally things can start moving!

Lord I stand in the midst of a multitude
Of those from every tribe and tongue
We are Your people redeemed by Your blood
Rescued from death by Your love

There are no words
Good enough to thank You
There are no words to express my praise
But I will lift up my voice
And sing from my heart
With all of my strength

Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah
To the Lamb
Hallelujah hallelujah
By the blood of Christ we stand
Every tongue every tribe
Every people every land
Giving glory giving honor
Giving praise unto the Lamb of God

Lord we stand by grace in Your presence
Cleansed by the blood of the Lamb
We are Your children called by Your name
Humbly we bow and we pray
Release Your power
To work in us and through us
Till we are changed
To be more like You
Then all the nations will seeYour glory revealed
And worship You

Every knee shall bow
Every tongue confess
That You are Lord of all
Giving praise unto the Lamb of God
Giving praise unto the Lamb of God
Jesus Christ Lamb of God

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yay camp was awesome love you all, love God mostest and cant wait for this year! wooOt so exciting =)

ohman, last week of the holidays and i'm only halfway through my maths stuff. but nevermind - going to sentosa with the ocip crew tmr then marathon meeting on thurs with my dears.

anyway, i had lots to say before but i think i've written them down in all the various books and places coz blogger was being annoying so hm.

oh but i have to say,

thank you God for rising the sun for us every morning, so beautifully and spectacularly even though there are so few people appreciating it, and it's different every single day!

wow it's been a long day,

watchnight yesterday was wonderful =) there's nothing like starting and ending a year with God. a covenent renewed, hands cleansed and ready to go

tng led worship at the sanctuary side awesomation! after service was the hanging around and taking photos as usual until the lights went out - an attempt to get us off the premises haha. went to macs with tessa's cell for supper- first meal of the year: tea and french fries with chili. classic.

went back with tessa to church to check out the bridge session but we ended up playing saboteur with the other nonbridgers/underaged ppl hahah. yup so that was until about 4ish.. tempted to go to sara's house after but well yeah. so i walked back home with reagan and tessa (who had to cab back to bukit timah!)

got up at 12ish and got hauled off to lunch the the p's and watched tv and slept the rest of the day. what a wonderful start to the new year!

camp tomorrow, and then i have to start studying already. and planning. and go to sentosa with the team. i'm just wondering when's the next time i can take a breather heh heh. heh.

can't believe it's already 2009. my 4th year back. wowza.