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finally i can get into blogger!

now what do i want to say. haha

the busy weekend's finally over, so now i get to rest for little while before i go for camp =) met my new big cell on sat before a meeting with my dears at navigators to do camp stuffs. so good to see them again! feel kinda oldish i guess coz they're all sec 4s.. they're all really nice ppl though!

then sunday i met some of my small cell, they're so sweet.. a bit quiet but that'll be alright i can work with quiet. and i met my new co-cell leader annette who didnt know i was sisters with jo and jie even though she said we sound the same hahah!

wanted to eat the ramly burger at the pasamalam but didnt get the chance.

camp meeting again yesterday with mr hu and matthew - excited for camp now! especially the morning qt and east coast even if we DO have to run there at 5.30 in the morning *glares at matthew and grumbles* but it's going to be fun stuffs =D

so now that all that's over i'm taking a break coz i can and i'm really going to rest and do unproductive things like write and reflect and watch movies and upload photos onto facebook yay.. i've already watched moulin rouge and walk the line. all from jie's Christmas present of course haha!

i should probably start writing again. the taleweavers thingy's just sitting there. i should also start exercising again (ha) but of course there are many other things i should start doing like drinking more milk or picking up Chinese or play the piano more or clear out my cupboard which i might do when i feel like it soonish but yeah shrugs.

cant wait for watchnight! tng's leading worship wooOts =)

esther, gen, dutt, jiayi, nadiah, cordelia, px, tammie

thanks for making my year so wonderful!

it was Christmas today! it still is, but it's coming to an end.

i got to see all my favourite ppl today! <3 if only i could have lunch with both of all of you but nvm no regret's for popiah man! woOts =) it's really great seeing you all again, that we can just pick up where we left off despite all the many many months of differences. but God put you all special ppl in my life and i'm so very grateful to Him for that (among many other things as well)

thank you all for the sweet sweet cards - the power of words, written or spoken is a blessing!

i'm just in awe of how much has happened this year. truly, it's never been so happening before to put it simply,just looking back on everything, recalling each month again i have no response apart from-

wow.

but this should be in my newyear's post! today's Christmas, and looking at all the commercialised Christmases all around is really quite sickening, what with santa and hohohos, it's all some warped version of the real meaning and it's veiling the eyes of just about every single country in the world.

it's more than just a season of giving, and receiving, it's like the start of the very first mission trip in the world - even worse than any ocip trip anyone could imagine and there was nothing in it for Jesus. so what was His motivation? must've been something huge to get Him out of Heaven.. it was His love for us. for the whole of mankind. His heart must've been really huge to hold all of that love. no one in the right mind would want to be born and know that He was gonna die. no man anyway.

just thinking of the huge sacrifice that He made is totally mindblowing.

Christmas is a time for celebrating God's love for us, and Jesus is the reason for the season. Anything else is quite an insult to what He's done, really.

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We are the Reason
David Meece

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find
But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason
That He gave His life
We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

who's ever heard of getting sore after a day of Christmas shopping heh heh.

ohwell bras basah complex is like my favourite place man! coz of tecman and artfriend and popular and all the wonderful ppl who have the same interests as me so i can buy them what i like hahha!

ethel fong i love your present.

I STILL HAVENT FINISHED WRITING ALL MY CHRISTMAS CARDS!

and it's Christmas eve 6.57pm now. shucks. i'm going to be doing Christmas cards after Christmas man!

at least i like what i'm doing aye.

it's pouring with rain now, which is what the weather should be like - coz if it cant snow then liquid precipitation is just as good! yay i'm all ready for Christmas.

and jeli's coming for the service tmr!! whOooHoo =D

i still have to make the chocolate thingys. but at least this busyness is fun.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE!

you know i was thinking, a levels are fully cramping my next year and it's inconveniencing a lot of ppl and plans including running a cca. never mind that i'm in jc to get my a levels aye.

singing in unity is the way it should be. oh man i have a busy year ahead of me. which is why i'm totally relaxing until the year officially ends and then i'll start working my butt off. who's brilliant idea was it to have a camp so early in the year ah.

anyway, most of my Christmas cards are done! which is awesome so now i just have to start getting presents and writing in them. i really love Christmas. next year's will be better though. i wish i could have a holiday.

where is the line between having a childlike faith and being practical?

Five Loaves and Two Fishes
Corinne May

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look

Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

haha i just had chesed weiwen shane ben samuel looyee over for dinner oh man and now my throat is dying from laughing so much! pictures are um. we have a serious lack of photos with each other honestly. i think we're too busy to mess around with cameras.

i'm seriously getting excited over Christmas.. only a couple more days! i know this means i really have to make like 6 cards a day from now til then but i really love Christmas =)watched family stone today with jie even if she did fall asleep as usual haha.. wonder how Christmas became such a huge holiday when half the people dont even know what they're celebrating. the whole thing is clouded by trees and snow, mistletoe, pudding and eggnog, logcake. santa. stockings. they're all wrapped up in their presents (haha) that cliche as it sounds, they really lose the meaning of the day.

the sickest bit is when they say 'believe.. in santa claus' like ohman. makes me annoyed how this holiday is so warped.

but it still doesnt stop me from making my pretty cards =)

i've got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart

we have such a talented group of ppl it's amazing.
man i'm so blessed it's overflowing.
love you all! love you Abba =)

Hear Us From Heaven
Jared Anderson

Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer
Forgive our sin
And as we call on your name
Would you make this a place
For your glory to dwell

Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near
Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are your people
Crying out in desperation

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when i close my eyes, i see wordchallenge. so not good.

i made a grand total of one card today. but it's pretty and i'm very happy with it yay!

facebook is insane atm, all the REAL camp photos are coming up and tags are flying all over the place but i really like my photos which are on my facebook and not my picasa coz i'm annoyed with my picasaweb.google.com.

how is my postcamp? it's sad when people miss camp because of the wrong reasons, it's like they are missing the whole point. i wonder what it would have been like to experience as a camper and not a leader..

but i've been given clean hands now, and blessings all over in abundance, and it was awesome coz i wasnt really expecting it. i wasnt even thinking to expect it, coz i felt the camp was not really for me for my group. and i'm really proud of them =) i want my cell now.

i dreamt of camp last night, it was like some action movie - lots of cars chasing each other and secret door ways.. we were all looking for something and someone was looking for us. at least the company was good hahah.

i feel like playing twister.

i'm back from church camp - it's been the awesomest! but i'm really tired now and i have no idea how some ppl can stay up all night bouncing around like balls of energy. am beginning to feel old. hahaha like really. yeah. hm.

what an experience. so many stories, so many lives, a confirmed calling - i'm so in love right now btw. it's been a year, but it's seemed so long. more in store, all in one place, a life recommitted, power of prayer, the next generation, to be real, a leader.

sometimes i never want to leave these places coz i'll be coming back to reality with work and emails and smses and then i'l be bogged again. but this time it's not going to happen because i'm not going to forget! and neither will those who dont want to. still clinging on to the fading sweetness of the fellowship and worship and presence of God. ohman <3 you to the maxest.

i just dont want to forget, and i dont want my group to forget, especially j, because there is so much potential in you! and for aaron, vicki, gordon, elizabeth, jon, mason, cleo, this is only the beginning. they will not forget iJnA. thank you mason and elizabeth for the prayers =)

now i want to go back to the place once again-

All I Want Is You
Planetshakers

I’ve waited all my life to be here face to face.
I never knew that I could feel this kind of grace.
The way You show me that Your love has washed me clean,
Could never be erased; it lives inside of me.

Take me to that secret place,
Where I can only see Your Face,
And nothing else will ever feel this way.
You take away my guilty stains,
The things I’ve done that I can’t change,
It’s only by the Power of Your name.

I stand here in this place,
See the Glory on Your Face,
Taken by the wonder of Your name.
I’m desperate for Your touch,
Never needed it so much,
Cause all I want is You.

camp tmr! until tuesday so dont text me til then! hahah

i'm kinda waiting for it to be over. coz then it'll just be mainly holidays then and i get more cards done. i'm up to 11 now.. but i didnt do anything today coz i decided to slack, which is something i havent done for a long while. yup! but i wrote the camp cards so my day wasnt compleeetely useless k. i think since the trip i have issues with wasted days. not relaxed days.. coz you can have meaningful but relaxed days, and you can also have busy wasted days yeah so today was a relaxing day of rest.

i feel the need to justify my slackiness for reasons unknown. maybe i'm just talking out my guilt. there are a LOT of Christmas cards to be done. i could buy them, but i think it'd be a waste coz i like making them and i feel it's more special when you give ppl something that took effort to create =)

i'm really excited about the idea i got walking home last night. and it fits in so perfectly with the dates that i know this isnt just a Good Idea but a God Idea. whoohoo0Oo. i'm going to have to push super hard but i'm going to make it happen! *jeremy will be so proud* beams. when's the next meeting ah?

it's been a year since i met you all! man how much things have changed and how what you said became true. it's really been amazing huh.

i've been dreaming of ocip pple. feel honoured! my church's mission trip ppl just came back from thailand. chiangmai. maechang. village. isnt that like super close to where we were?

everytime i think of that place i feel so unaccomplished because of the programmes that we didn't carry out and it's probably a comm thing or maybe even just a me thing but i feel regret which sucks coz now i'm here and cant do anythng about it. which is why if we were really to go back i would fully go because we could really do a good job this time because it's lives we're dealing with. i know we didnt go there JUST to build a library or teach english coz if not they would have just hired contractors and qualified teachers, but the intangible as well. that part was wonderful but whenever i look back i have this 'mmf' kind of feeling, not a 'we could have done better' but a 'we can do better'.

so yeah. we should go back, if not seriously help next year's ppl. and it would be before april next next year because that's when the guys go to army. up for it anyone? i know i am.

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met with the camp ppl today =) the dynamics are strangely wonderful. not in an unexpected sort of strange, but a funky strange. haha anyway our umbrella is the coolest bean coz it's a pizza and not a face like nigel's group's and 3 others nyeh! and our cheer is awesome. yay for luke and his potentially thrown away face! shucks i still need to write the cards.

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ewlc meeting today. it's funny how i say easterweek first coz sfc's in charge of that but jeremy always says lifecon first. anywho. i dunno yet about the whole thing but it'll work in the end i'm just curious to find out how.

anyone who says sfc is a slack cca should come to one of these meetings.

i've never been so busy in my entire life i dont think. but by God's grace i really dont feel that stressed. i know if He's put me in all of these places right now He'll get me through all of it just fine. i'm thinking of making up a list like mr yit's.

the 5 languages of love: touch, gifts, time, service, words. if we do all of it, it'll definitely reach out to someone. not at the same time though coz that'll just be OverWhelm.

wow now i'm quite excited.

awesomation.

i cant see the ocip blog.

and my Christmas Card Count is up to 9 whoohoo =D

i'm starting to get a bit freaked out about the whole camp thingus. even if luke is there. well tmr will tell when we paint umbrellas! which isnt a code or anything.. we're really going to paint an umbrella.

homevideos of 16 years ago are um, heh yeah well.

i love Christmas!

i spent the day making Christmas cards with Christmas songs playing and the weather was all rainy and wonderful.. at least it rained coz even if it doesnt snow some sort of precipitation will do anyway =)

so now the count is up to.. 6. yay! but i think i might have to buy some for some ppl and i really dont want to do that.

anyway something happened today that made me really really really happy and i was beaming all the way back home in the car but i'm not going to say coz it's a surprise! and i cant believe it's making me so happy =D

i've been trying my best to stick with the goal that i set back at the last debrief in chiangmai, and i guess so far it's helping. in the least it gives me a purpose for the day and it's surprising how effective it is in governing the things you do. i cant even remember what it is word for word but in essence it's in my heart which is good enough yeah.





i guess that's what we've all called to be, to make the world a better place for others, it is through the lives that we lead that people can see the difference and know where to account it to. so yeah, it's a ministry, it's a service and we are the servants. time to exercise that muscle people.





uncle allan's sermon was good today. convicting. thank you God, really.





i re-realised the awesomeness of grace and mercy today. if basically we're all good people, and try to live a good life, but because of one tiny mistake we get thrown into hell that's just unfair. so enter God forgiving us each time we know we sin when we ask and every time we commit a single tiny mistake we are scooped up from the fires just as we're falling that's just amazing. and plus when He looks at us afterwards, He doesn't even see the bad things we've done, He sees us for all the good things that we can do. and He does all that coz He loves us.





sometimes i just forget and now i just feel like singing.





but it sucks when you know all of this, but others dont, and you're not worried about yourself coz you're all good but you know that another person would really be blessed by it but they dont know. in some cases you can tell them, but right now i cant and i feel so useless and all i can do is pray and i've done that.

5. we sat under the stars on blackout night with chesed, amirah, brenda and petch - that's pretty enough without description

6. she bubbles. and her pencil case is called molly and something else is polly and another thing is another strange name. and she talks in third person. (the last one isnt really why i love her, it's just a weird fun fact about her)


i'm sure there are many more reasons but here are just a few and now i would really like audrey to post about me! *beams*

there's so much i feel there is to say but whenever i sit down to say it nothing comes out. it's still all in there and i'm afraid that when i say it out it'll go away like i've processed it out. maybe it's time for a narrative.

anyway, my photos are all up now.. either in ocip, ocip (more) or the teambuilding camp coz there wasnt enough space to fit them all in.

i miss the stars and i'm beginning to seriously not like computers

i'm home!

loves bed.

but already i'm so busy and that really superly sucks and yeah my photos are taking up lots of space and i miss chiangmai.

praise God that i didn't fall sick and everyone got home safe!

misses everyone muches.