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John 15:13

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hello! today was another awesome birthday =) got a charles spurgeon book, famous amos cookie!, fantastic cards, royce chocolates, a craft book, lots of well wishers and an v v v v coolbean jap buffet for dinner. yay! second time in 3 days that i'm stuffed ttm =I

i've been having reminiscing sessions of my past 18 years, was talking to jo about pigeon mountain primary, and watched a couple of old sesame street videos.. and read the whole faraway tree book haha! feel kinda old seeing as i can remember things from like 10 years ago heh heh heh.

there's something rather happy about bubbles! (jo just found some in her drawer and let out a whole stream of them)

prelim break soon! wish i signed up for ymlc.. think i could've afforded it.. ahwell. next year aye =)

prelim's started! gp yesterday and today were the two killer papers cse and econs bleagh. rah. will get that cookie. hahah

but it was alright in the end, coz dinner was awesome =D bread+butter+mashed potato+chocolatefudgebrowniewithicecream+company=a very contented me

fat smile! =I

4 days to go for maths and physics ho ho.

the rainy weather's been so good, but time for a good rest methinks

something wrong with msn =(

and blogger.. it's all ugly

successful day of studying finally feel rather accomplished and satisfied.. heh. did a whole lot of cse, then when i was looking at my gp stuff suddenly felt a bit freaked out? ho humm

i really cant wait for Christmas, even if i am going to be all by my lonesome during the season.. wonder if i'll have any energy left to do anything after november 30th. which is in 3 months this sunday!

i've never had exam nerves before this.. v strange. doesnt help that i've just caught a cold as well so i'll be sniffing throughout tmr and friday =(

shall go play some guitar to make myself feel better.. hurry think of a name!

Wheel
John Mayer

People have the right to fly
And will when it gets compromised
Their hearts say "Move along"
Their minds say "Gotcha heart"
Let's move it along
Let's move it along

And airports
See it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand a single rose

And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now

aly's leaving tmr =( we're going to send her off before school starts.. gonna have to sleep at like.. 9pm tonight or something haha.

i'm going to miss you dear

i am full, and high, on icecream and laughs

was reading up on politics stuffs for gp and chatting with jie, and was thinking how awesome the world would be if the world followed the Bible in the ways of governance.. and actually lived it out. with like God right at the top and it would be okay because he's infallible, and has our best interests at heart. he'd never seek to gain power or act unjustly, there'd be no inequity because he cares for all.
and we all wont be caught up with making lots of money and chasing after things that dont really matter in the end, because we'd just be in love with God all day, and worshipping him all the time and in everything that we do..

everyone will be equal, and it'd work, because God is perfect and loves us.

but instead, what have we created for ourselves? a system where the greediest will gain, and competition drives us to leave the weaker ones behind and everyone acts in self interest.

But if we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching?
Why aren't His hands healing?
Why aren't His words teaching?

And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them
There is a way?

what a day..

started like any other, lecture timetable etc, finished at 1 though so that was good, went over for cor for a um 'meeting' (you didnt fool me btw) but thank you anyway, even if i couldnt eat the icecream =)

wahahah i have this awesome image of *ahem* on the chair, ready to jump and squash poor ben and matt framed in the doorway with that look on his face.. makes me laugh everytime i think about it

went for bcm again to celebrate um, i dunno, it's 'the place' so we go there, haha before college day. which i didnt have to go for and am really grateful for that btw

and met annette for a superfast dinner before jo chean's father heart of God course! and like wow, it was awesome.. he spoke of his life, what got me the most was the impact that happened just by him choosing what was the perfect plan. and his willingness to be healed from all his past hurts, he really let everything go and God did fantastic things through him, and i want that too

the second session is tmr, in the afternoon, and i've only just realised how brave/foolish it was of me to do this when yeah, my prelims start next thurs. but i didnt regret tonight, i'll just get up earlierish tmr?

surely as the sun will rise, you'll come

how sad when you get home and no one else is home..

ungh. i'm missing too many people already.. they're either leaving or about to be left and really, i dont know how much more letting go i can let go of right now. what an inconvenient time for prelims.. exams always seem to get in the way of school. ha.

so what's the best way to say goodbye? do you go keep spending time, doesnt that make it harder to part? or do you stay away, maybe it'll hurt less when it's time to go.. i've tried pretending i didn't mind leaving, but that was nearing 4 years ago now, and i hope i'm a tad wiser than then. so how now,

part of me just wants to hibernate til it's all over, bury myself under my blanket and not be part of it (while wondering what's going on without me out there, of course). but that i suppose remains on the farther end of my lovely escapist daydream.

hm.

on another note, i watched up on monday and it was awesome! i really enjoyed watching it, not something that can be said for every movie that i watched. but this was exactly what i needed - an avenue to release emotion and be part of a different story, fantastical as it may be? i cried twice, and laughed til i cried at another time. maybe i'm just a romantic, or maybe it was my already volatile state of being. maybe both? it was sweet, and sentimental so yeah. identified.

i cant wait for this week to be over, and next week too.. i should waiting for things to be over, really. should look forward to things instead. or is it the same thing. shrugs.

i must've picked up the guitar 5 different times yesterday, like unzipped it from the bag and strum and put it back again hahah! loves [insert name here] =) quick come up with a name!!

WATCHING 'UP' TMR AFTERNOON ANY TAKERS?

yes i know my prelims are coming.

i think it finally hit me yesterday, and i'm sad-ish now. i dreamt of eating time-outs the other day. there might be more to that than lack of chocolate - ha! but i'm alright, i know why i'm doing what i'm doing.

i wouldnt mind going for a retreat

joseph chean's father heart of God on fridayand saturday! and yay that i dont have to be at college day either thank you God =D

time to take nac out for another outing to school.. i want to capture it before it slips past me in that sneaky way time does.

i have a new geeeeetaaaarr =D

went with kelvin samu and looyee to get one yesterday, at peninsular plaza and completely made my week. yay!

yup so now i'm the proud owner of a cort that doesnt look like a table top or a zebra, and is a solid top and made of mahogany and sounds fantastic, and i cant think of any other guitary terms to put in but it's awesome and that's good enough

it's also fully mine, and unnamed.. at least until jie comes back hahaha. suggestions welcome but subject to approval!

we were going to watch 'up' as well, but couldnt fit it in since we were going to crawford lane after, and it's really pretty good even though i'm not the hugest fan of bcm =)

so yup. week made, and i'm happy!

geez what a mopey weekend. well actually just monday.. the rest was pretty alrightish =)

bummed around most of monday, with my awesome nuah-ing partner whoohoohoo.. and i fully didn't want to come to school today but yeah. well. today would've been a peanut slab day to sum it up in a .. nut. shell. heh

hm. oh well actually come to think of it right, i've actually had a pretty good rest.. watched lots of tv.. like stardust! on friday, snippets of x-men too which is surprisingly good actually, but the guy with the tongue is just creepy. and disgusting. haha. and had very interesting meals as well

ho hum, really wonder what's in store for me in the next few years..

i can't wait for Christmas.

i think we ended well =)

looking back i have absolutely no regrets of the past year, i've learned so much, met such awesome people and gotten to know God so much deeper.. can't even begin to thank Him for all the blessings He's poured out on me, i've done nothing to deserve all of this, now what i want to know is what all of it has been for

i suppose i have to go all the way back to that day at pmc when i decided not to try again for soccer, to just join sfc coz i just wanted to serve God somehow and i thought it'd be the best place to do it. for the record, i had absolutely no idea what i was getting myself into. the first half of the year was really a blur.. i had no idea what on earth was going on

i remember the first time i found out about my exco, i'd only met sammie and weiwen like 2 weeks before.. i had no idea who on earth victor was, though i distinctly recall thinking the guy with the wig in lifecon was =? haha! but on friday when i stood with them, i could see the power that each of them had, and we had as a team, brought out just from the year alone.

am feeling a little nostalgic lately.. kept catching myself in fields, villages, cities, theme parks, a different time of the year.. all throughout this week. talk about the escapism setting in aye. pull me back when you catch me daydreaming k? nothing like a cold splash of prelim reality.

on a happier note, my dearest nac is back! my life is a little more complete holding you in my hands. yay for awesome camera!
hahahah

fop was awesome! once again, i have found out that all things somehow or another lead back to .....
.. home. hahah! another trip back from the east in the night, teleportation would be much easier but i guess you'd have to worry about mixing up your molecules with other people's when we go whizzing around in the air, or however it works. i'm sure there are plenty of reasons why it's not possible.

anyway, what a night of eyes being opened! God i know you're moving in people's lives now, prayers becoming reality, so don't give up people! there is always hope in God when you trust Him with all your heart. *beams*

oh gosh i have a sneaking suspicion i'm going to need a lot of tissues this week.

on a another really totally completely unrelated note, i'm stepping down this week. some part of me screams 'fiIIiinally', and the other part goes 'nooOo..' so in a nutshell, basically i'm kinda torn.

you know i'm kinda not wanting to go to sleep because i dont want this week to start. i fully don't feel prepared for it. but of course, time has that way of being completely unsympathetic and void of all emotion and keeps ticking away. well at least that's something man can't manipulate, there's something remotely reassuring about things out of my control. maybe i've had too much of responsibility hahah. thinks of bilbo being like butter scraped over too much bread? fantastic, lotr has a quote for every circumstance. which kinda sounds theologically iffy, but anyway.

alright! i'm going, exeunt stage left, and into bed.