"Greater love has no one than this,
that he lay down his life for his friends."

John 15:13

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you know how they say it's hard to forgive people you don't know?

feels like it's the other way around sometimes. or most of the time. for now anyway. coz when it comes to people you dont know, you give them more leeway- maybe they just dont know you that well, whatever they said, they didnt know it would hurt so much, it's ok. you dont know if they really meant it so much, coz you dont know them so well, so forget about it, it's alrightish.
but when it comes to ppl that you know so well, that you know they know you so well, and they say just the most hurtful things that really shakes you to the core. so why would they say it? with the intention of hurting? and if they didnt why didnt they say sorry? or explain themselves. do they even know what they did. are they really that insensitive. maybe i should have known that, should have known better.

i know nothing from the outside can shake me. coz of th support i have on the inside. so what if part of the inside starts rotting away? as it turns out, i guess you can only have one support. but then everything shifts and reshuffles - where do i put them then?

there's certain amount of Denial in this.

finally. everything catches up. thanks for ruining my sunday. the whole week had been tainted, somewhere in the background. i'm just going to wait for my head to clear. i feel like one of my limbs have been sawn off, and i cant function properly until its all fixed.

i think that was somewhat cathartic. i feel better already.

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the power that conquered that grave lives in me.
your love that rescued the earth lives in me.

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Spirit Touch Your Church
Kim Bollinger

Lord, I need Your grace and mercy.
I need to pray like never before.
I need the power of your holy spirit
To open Heaven's door

Spirit touch Your church,
stir the hearts of men.
Revive us Lord with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me.
Let your reign fall on me.

Lord we humbly come before You.
We don't deserve of You what we ask.
But we long to see Your glory
Restore this dying land.

Spirit touch Your church,
stir the hearts of men.
Revive us Lord with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me.

Let your reign fall on me.

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