listened to this on the way to school today, and i just felt all the burdens just lift from me and i was like. wow, it's just amazing. so so amazing. i dont have to be down, i have no reason to be sad.

last night when i was lying in bed trying to get to sleep, i was thinking - this grace that God's given to us, we sooooooOOooo didn't deserve it. but God gave it to us coz when He looks at us, He sees Jesus and as much as He loves Jesus, He loves us. alright, to be fair i didnt think all of this on my own. it's a mixture of sunday's sermon and other meditations. but i was just lying there going 'wow isnt that the good news?'

i'm pretty certain of asking mrs loi about the hearing God's voice thing, after hearing what others said about the awesome prayer session last friday. some may not be ready, but some definitely are. it's like they've had a taste of the nicest lolly and just want to have more.

i feel like i'm seeing the world again with a whole new pair of eyes sometimes, like i've never seen them before. and i can't help thinking what on earth i was doing all those past 16 years? how come no one told me about this relationship, when i was in nz, when i was younger. why did i only find out about it now, when i come back to singapore, in plmc, in sajc. what were all the years before for?

and i just found out what hallelujah means: it's hebrew for 'let us praise God'.

i must have said it thousands of times without knowing what it meant. we really need to know the power of what we say.