Thursday, October 23, 2008
time to change
wow.
the wr is. like gone! all gone =D *beeeaams*
not without a fight of course. first the printing went wrong, so jiang jun went off, i got the wr burned into cd, went home, and the rest went to the science centre. i come home and get frowned upon by mum for not going since its free without listening to my reasoning about oneway bus trips and ditching us in jurong. hmph. so i go watch csi waiting for my grey's to start then jiang jun calls and sounds super panicky saying the colour didnt work anddoihaveacolourprintercozthebindingshopclosesat4.30andifnotwe'reprettyscrewed. and i was all clean and showered and sleepy and ready for grey's.
at least i got a ride to school - thanks dad! =) anywho, now i know why i didnt go to the science centre yay =)
it's been a pretty crappy week though. feel very uneasy inside and i dont know why. k i have a gut feeling and it's not a good one even though i know it's probably true.
time. veryvery sucky. and so is no candycanes in october.
chesed says: life is sweet, life is simple. fullstop period.
they're all good people, they have good hearts and they know what's right and what's wrong, and it really really sucks that they have no clue what's in store for them and how much more they fully deserve. and even if they do live til a hundred and ten doing a whole lot of community work, it's all useless and pointless because it doesnt have any longrun effect and they are really wasting their life. and why is it that i know all this and dont tell them. that's probably the part that makes it all so much worse. i hear what they say, i see how they live, the hurts and the evils that are slowly eating them away and i stay quiet. so who's committing the sin here.
freedom is doing what you want, when you want to and not having to feel like you should be doing something more important. it's waking up in the morning feeling refreshed and starting on Christmas cards because there is nothing else that is more important and you want to do it. it's being able to walk across the street and sit in a tree singing aloud without people looking at you weird. and it's not having that tired feeling around the bottom of your eyes and biking around the block coz you feel like there's nothing better to do than what you're doing now. and it's to just sit and talk like you have all the time in the world.
i need to sleep. and pray. aaand rest.
9:38 pm
