Wednesday, March 18, 2009
hahahaha i just had this fleeting idea which i know if i say it, i wouldnt be able to hear the end of it whenever i go to school. so i'm not going to say it coz it's just such easy bait for slander and we all know that i'm smart enough not to put myself there aye. so nyeh.
anyway, today i just felt sooo sick of studying which made me a it scared to tell you the truth coz i was suddenly reminded of that guy from a top jc who went all depressed and said he didnt want to study anymore.
but i couldnt like, not study today. even in cor with ppl laughing, talking, guitaring, singing, spouting nonsense i couldnt not study. i saw my notes there and i just had to study. i think it's inbuilt or something heh. it was quite a strange feeling, the totally sttmmness but yet still doing it anyway. to me it felt like it was just one of those moments where i feel human (not that most days i dont haha) and forget that everything i do is for the glory of God.
so even though i put on my harrumphing-ness and gripe, it just goes against my whole being to just let my block tests die. so looks like i'm tied to my notes for the meantime anyway. but i really need You on this one, God. seriously screwed for physics and econs at this rate =(
i think i like to watch people grow.
11:30 pm