Wednesday, August 19, 2009
how sad when you get home and no one else is home..
ungh. i'm missing too many people already.. they're either leaving or about to be left and really, i dont know how much more letting go i can let go of right now. what an inconvenient time for prelims.. exams always seem to get in the way of school. ha.
so what's the best way to say goodbye? do you go keep spending time, doesnt that make it harder to part? or do you stay away, maybe it'll hurt less when it's time to go.. i've tried pretending i didn't mind leaving, but that was nearing 4 years ago now, and i hope i'm a tad wiser than then. so how now,
part of me just wants to hibernate til it's all over, bury myself under my blanket and not be part of it (while wondering what's going on without me out there, of course). but that i suppose remains on the farther end of my lovely escapist daydream.
hm.
on another note, i watched up on monday and it was awesome! i really enjoyed watching it, not something that can be said for every movie that i watched. but this was exactly what i needed - an avenue to release emotion and be part of a different story, fantastical as it may be? i cried twice, and laughed til i cried at another time. maybe i'm just a romantic, or maybe it was my already volatile state of being. maybe both? it was sweet, and sentimental so yeah. identified.
i cant wait for this week to be over, and next week too.. i should waiting for things to be over, really. should look forward to things instead. or is it the same thing. shrugs.
9:45 pm
